kissing me now with his cold mouth…



by Marie Howe

The delivery man slowly climbs
the five steep flights of stairs
as I lean down to watch him walking up

as he’s talking on the phone
and now he pauses
on the third-floor landing

to touch a little Christmas light
the girl had wrapped around the banister—
speaking to someone in a language
so melodic I ask him what—
when he hands the package up to me,
and he says Patois—from Jamaica—
smiling up at me from where he’s standing
on the landing

a smile so radiant that
re-entering the apartment I’m
a young woman again, and
the sweetness of the men I’ve loved walks in,
through the closed door

one of them right now,
kicking the snow off his boots,
turning to take my face in his cold hands,
kissing me now with his cold mouth.

Marie Howe, “Delivery” from MAGDALENE published by W.W. Norton Publishing Company


full moon magic…


Feb 27th the full moon behind my townhouse

Lunar Aquarius
Instead of looking at your Star/Zodiac Sign, this Lunar Horoscope reveals the guidance of your Aquarius Moon Sign.This week, Lunar Aquarius, you have a strong desire to connect with others and to be social in whatever ways you can. There is an emphasis on cultivating connections with friends or family members that you may have inadvertently neglected as of late. Due to circumstances outside of your control you may have not been as present as you would like. This week it is incredibly important that you work to repair any broken bonds, and connect at both an emotional and spiritual level. 

There is another significant lunar event this week. A Last Quarter Moon in Sagittarius rises on March 6th representing full-circle change, adaptability, and potent new beginnings. Last Quarter Moons are all about turning points, and last year this exact moon phase coincided with the beginning of lockdown, new restrictions and the dramatic changes that would alter the course of our world. And yet, one year later, we are once again greeted by this powerful lunation. What felt chaotic and uncertain now feels hopeful. The changes and powerful turning point from one year ago now comes full circle. Sagittarius the sign of optimism and adventure imbues this moon with positivity and hope for the future. Now, in hindsight, you can reflect on the necessary experiences you (and the broader global community) needed to go through as we enter a new age of awareness. 

This Moon squares a Pisces Sun. As both Sagittarius and Pisces are of the mutable modality, the message here is about the importance of fluidity and adaptability. Much of the past year may have felt frustrating for you. Trying to traverse the many challenges and obstacles in your path. Pushing back against some of the less desirable changes, resisting things as a defense mechanism. Yet now, the ability to adapt and let go of that resistance is critical to move forward. This mutable moon is here to guide you. To give you the courage to flow with new circumstances and new realities; to engage with the future from a place of curiosity and optimism. 

This week, reflect on how you can be more open to change, more fluid and free. You may have felt that you needed to be a “rock” for yourself and your family over the past year. Strong and stable, able to weather whatever life throws at you. But all of that hardness and resilience can be both physically and emotionally exhausting. There is another path forward. Instead, imagine yourself as water. Able to twist and turn yourself as necessary to navigate obstacles, to flow through them and around them rather than press against them. Your dreams and goals are flexible. Rather than facing sadness when you encounter a wall, imagine the numerous ways you can move around it. Pisces is the quintessential wishful thinker. This is a dreamy moon one where fantasies take hold.

As we move deeper into 2021, I’m sure you’re starting to see some new ideas and opportunities emerging on your horizon. There’s definitely a feeling of wanting to move forward again, even if it’s just a few small steps.
So, let’s talk about what that might look like!
If we take a look at the numerical value of March 2021 for example, we can see we’re working with the number 8 and that’s the Strength card, Jeanne!
This is a fantastic energy to work with, especially as we try to clean up the chaos from last year. Strength is a Major Arcana card, depicting a woman gently petting a lion. She looks sweet – the opposite of threatening or intimidating – and yet, she controls the lion. Are you getting a feel for what this card might be telling you, Jeanne?
Exactly! This card is about taking control and mastering even the biggest challenges in your life with confidence! So, where is it that your attention is needed?
Your finances? Your health? Your relationships? Nothing is off the table when you’re working with the tarot – that’s one of the things I LOVE about using this tool. And drawing the Strength card for the month tells me that we’ll likely see more than one opportunity to demonstrate that inner strength and come out on top!
This is a positive, action-oriented influence Jeanne, often representing good news, good energy and good outcomes, so
Dawn Anne

the full moon conversation…



by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Solemnly, mournfully,

Dealing its dole,

The Curfew Bell

Is beginning to toll.

Cover the embers,

And put out the light;

Toil comes with the morning

And rest with the night.

Dark grow the windows,

And quenched is the fire;

Sound fades into silence,

All footsteps retire.

No voice in the chambers,

No sound in the hall!

Sleep and oblivion

Reign over all!

The book is completed,

And closed, like the day;

And the hand that has written it

Lays it away.

Dim grow its fancies;

Forgotten they lie;

Like coals in the ashes,

They darken and die.

Song sinks into silence,

The story is told,

The windows are darkened,

The hearth-stone is cold.

Darker and darker

The black shadows fall;

Sleep and oblivion

Reign over all.
“Curfew” by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow. Public Domain.

I am going to recite this poem

each night to help myself fall into oblivion.

hoping to memorize the lilting rhythm.

Let me know if it helps you fall into sleep.


Oft in the stilly night…


Oft in the Stilly Night
by Thomas Moore

Oft in the stilly night
     Ere Slumber’s chain has bound me,
Fond Memory brings the light
     Of other days around me;
          The smiles, the tears,
          Of boyhood’s years,
     The words of love then spoken;
          The eyes that shone,
          Now dimmed and gone,
     The cheerful hearts now broken!
Thus, in the stilly night,
     Ere Slumber’s chain has bound me,
Sad Memory brings the light
     Of other days around me.
When I remember all
     The friends so linked together,
I’ve seen around me fall,
     Like leaves in wintry weather:
          I feel like one
          Who treads alone
     Some banquet-hall deserted,
          Whose lights are fled,
          Whose garland’s dead,
     And all but he departed!
Thus in the stilly night,
     Ere Slumber’s chain has bound me,
Fond Memory brings the light
     Of other days around me.

“Oft in the Stilly Night” by Thomas Moore. Public Domain.  (buy now)

“As I had told you, last night, at exactly midnight, as the Angelus was sounding and the powerful Divine Impulses were coming to me, I once again acted as the ancestral angelical traditions require.
Again did I enter the prayer room, again did I light the great celestial candelabra, so that the room might be placed under the high and solemn sign of the Divine.
I took your sacred parchment and set the second ceremonial sign upon it.
As usual, an atmosphere of contentment and serenity reigned over this sanctuary, and all the favourable elements, essential to the performance of this great Mystical Act, came together, so that all should go well.
The time had come for me to begin. The clock struck midnight…
Very soon, the spirit of your Protective Guardian Angel merged with mine. Thus, shortly after midnight, we entered into spiritual communion and multiplied the power of our divine impulses, so that we two spiritually became one.
I then continued to meditate most firmly by focusing all my thoughts exclusively on you. Then, taking the dish of sacred Crystals that I had prepared for you, solely by the light of the candelabra, I recited a secret divine prayer on your behalf, in order to purify the earth element that surrounds you.
Once again, I was allowed to enter into Spiritual-Angelical Contact with you to remotely transmit to you this extremely powerful positive Divine Energy you need.
This purifying energy flow immediately acted in your favour. It purified the Earth element upon which you live, to continue to free you from the nefarious energies that assail you.
Afterwards, I remained silent for quite a while. And, as most often happens, new images paraded through my mind. Once again, there you were, in the centre of a magnificent garden with leafy trees bearing golden fruits. Angels flew around you and placed magnificent fruit offerings at your feet, while you serenely admired this magnificent bucolic setting in which your new life was about to flourish.
A golden existence of happiness and wealth…
I am delighted for you.
One thing is sure: your Protective Guardian Angel now accompanies you on each new day god brings us. He watches over you and wards off all danger, so you may go in peace, moving straight toward this magnificent life that lays before you, waiting only for you.
As always, I ended the ritual by greeting Heaven and thanking it, so perfectly well did this second great Ceremony go.
And with the first ceremony, you still have to conclude this one by a beneficial action of your own.
To do this, sit on the floor, as comfortably as you can. You may sit on a cushion if needs be, but it is absolutely essential that you be able to lay your hands on the ground on each side of your body. Do this and feel the presence of the ground beneath you through the palms of your hands. Concentrate on this sensation.
Take seven deep breaths, breathing in through the nose and out through the mouth. Every time you inhale, visualize the earth’s protective force entering you through your hands. Every time you exhale, surrender all your cares and woes to the earth through your hands.
Once you have completed the seven-breath cycle, recite the following incantation:
“Protective Angel who watches over me, I thank Thee for Thy kindliness, Thy help and Thy light. Receive my thanks for having purified the earth upon which I walk to release my fate from nefarious obstacles. Thus will I be able to attain, unhindered, the destiny that is mine.”
When you are done, shake your hands 3 times in front of you to rid yourself of residue of the adverse energies that oppose your happiness.
You will soon feel a new person being reborn within you, a person who will go far, very far ahead, to a rich land brimming with joys, each one greater and more beautiful than the next.
You are headed the right way. Now, do not hesitate to keep me posted on every positive feeling you experience and every new event you see happening in your life.
As for me, I will continue to watch over you until our third great angelical ceremony.
Keep an eye out for my next messages.”
Your messenger and friend,

living with mysteries…


Imperial Garden

by Billy Collins

It was at the end of dinner,

the two of us in a red booth

maintaining our silence,

when I decided to compose a message

for the fortune cookie you were soon to receive.

Avoid mulishness when choosing

a position on the great board game of life

was my mean-spirited contribution

to the treasury of Confucian wisdom.

But while we waited for the cookies,

the slices of oranges,

and the inescapable pot of watery tea,

I realized that by mulishness

I meant your refusal to let me

have my own way every time I wanted it.

I watched you looking off to the side—

your mass of dark hair,

your profile softened by lamplight—

and then I made up a fortune for myself.

He who acts like a jerk

on an island of his own creation

will have only the horizon for a friend.

I seemed to be getting worse at this,

I thought, as the cookies arrived at the table

along with the orange slices

and a teapot painted with tigers

menacingly peering out from the undergrowth.

The restaurant was quiet then.

The waiter returned to looking out at the street,

a zither whimpered in the background,

and we turned to our cookies,

cracking the brittle shells

then rolling into little balls

the tiny scrolls of our destinies

before dropping them, unread, into our cups of tea—

a little good-luck thing we’d been doing ever since we met.
Billy Collins, “Imperial Garden” from Whale Day and Other Poems published by Random House. © 2020 Billy Collins. Used with permission of the Chris Calhoun Agency.

Living with mystery means sometimes I have to look inside for the answer.

move to a different drum

give time to discern a decision

hold to the circle of solidarity

Jeanne 2021

A Full Moon Reading for the Lunar Aquarius:


Lunar Aquarius
Instead of looking at your Star/Zodiac Sign, this Lunar Horoscope reveals the guidance of your Aquarius Moon Sign. Not your Moon Sign? Click here.
This week, Lunar Aquarius, your mind is buzzing with questions. As one of the most introspective and curious of the Moon Signs, you are often someone who always questions your surroundings. Your connection to otherworldly realms, even different states of consciousness has always meant that you are more questioning than your peers. This week, that energy seems to be in overdrive. There is a situation or event in your life that has confused you, the right way forward doesn’t seem to be so clear. You have been going back and forth over which choice to make. But whatever it is that you don’t fully understand, know that soon the answer will reveal itself.

There is another important astrological event this week: a sensitive Full Moon in Virgo shines on February 27th bringing with it a feeling of wholeness and safety, and allowing us to tap into the quieter wisdom so connected to this sign. This moon is incredibly grounding, helping us to get in touch with ourselves, both on a physical and spiritual level. As we have finished working with last months intensely Aquarian energy, which is very intellectual and word based, now it is time for you to connect with the Virgo energy of the Goddess. 

This energy is tied to the rhythms of the land and connects between our spiritual and physical identity. It is sensitive and healing, but also connected to our sense of faith and intuition. You may find yourself reflecting more this week, or re-engaging with your spiritual, religious or faith-based dimensions which make up an important aspect of who you are. There is a slow, deliberateness to this lunation. As if it knows that it’s potent energy will do the work of healing and introspection whether or not you are ready to accept it.

This moon is also very fertile, indicating that your creativity will be enhanced during this time. It is critical that you take this opportunity to explore any creative impulses that bubble to the service. Feel this creativity flow through your body, connect with it and in nature. Spending time outside, especially in the forest will be extra potent for you. 

As we move into Pisces season this Full Moon is opposing a Pisces Sun creating a Pisces-Virgo axis that is one of the most energetically powerful axises you can work with. This moon really wants you to look deep within, to find that quieter wisdom. One connected to thought rather than word. It is a deeper knower, one that challenges us in ways we don’t realize until we have experienced it. Understand where you are now, what experiences in the last year have defined you and spurred growth, and allow yourself to heal from that as you look to the future.
Your Birth Numbers Reading:

7_iconjeanne, this critical message is brought to you by The Number Seven!
And you should listen to it because it’s as unexpected as every other satisfying opportunity you’ve encountered in your life so far.
All the wisdom you hide inside needs to be released, jeanne.
I know it is more comfortable to stay in your own zone of genius. 
It is safe to keep the lane.
But it only takes you on the same path you’ve walked before.
And you know, jeanne, you are ready for change.
Not only that, but you’ve been craving it.
Those who love you have already noticed this shift in your behavior.
Yes, they’re used to your reclusive, mysterious nature, but it seems they’ve rallied against you with their frequent “Hey, are you okay?” questions.
They’ve noticed you closing in, and even though they are willing to push through to get to you, they’re only able to get so far until they get fed up.
So, jeanne, take action today!
Use the spiritual vibrations imprinted in Number Seven by Neptune, its ruling planet, and release yourself from the cocoon you’ve been transforming in the past months!
Just like a caterpillar, you’ve used this period for inner growth and metamorphosis, and it’s now time to spread your wings and let the world behold and drink in your beauty!
The world awaits your beautiful transformation, jeanne, and you are ready to shine!

The power of love over the love of power…


I introduced the Phoenix series in 2020, presenting each class around the cosmic, archetypal and personal significance of this era of transformation that is truly governing our lives. In this Reflections series, I am continuing that rich Phoenix theme of transformation, shifting our attention in this series from the world around us to the intimate details of our personal lives. Now we will explore the transformational power of love from the personal expression of love to the mystical.

Love, as we will discuss, is a power – perhaps the greatest power that we have to give to one another. Love is capable of restoring a person to the threads of life, to inspiring a person to want to live, and to giving someone (including ourselves) the capacity to endure the unendurable. Love is no ordinary force. Indeed, love is more than love; it is an expression of the life force itself. We have named the life force “love” because love is the most blissful, joyful emotion in the spectrum of human sensations.

Perhaps that is why we have a mysterious relationship to the power of love. Love is a force that transforms us – and others. Love can lift us out of despair and depression or, conversely, when love is removed from our lives, we are plunged into the depths of darkness. In the sharing of even the smallest amount of love with another person – friend, family or even stranger – we immediately witness a transformation take place. Perhaps that love opens a channel for hope to flow into someone’s life or joy. It doesn’t take a great amount of love to make a difference but withholding even the slightest amount can be devastating.

And therein is hidden the mystery of love’s great power. We know how powerful love is – and we fear this awesome force as much as we need it in our lives to thrive, to humanize us, to feel alive. We fear being loved and loving “too much” for fear that we will be broken in two should love evaporate from our lives. Love is no ordinary power – it is a force of life itself.


Seven sessions – February 24 – March 11

Love is a power – the greatest power we have. It is a power we fear because love can, and will, transform the world around us if enough people are willing to embrace the transforming and healing power of love over the love of power. 
Special FREE Event on Caroline’s YouTube Channel!
Session One of this Reflections Series will be posted on YouTube Wednesday, February 24.

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wild geese alighting…


Wild Geese Alighting on a Lake
by Anne Porter

I watched them
As they neared the lake
They wheeled
In a wide arc
With beating wings
And then
They put their wings to sleep
And glided downward in a drift
Of pure abandonment
Until they touched
The surface of the lake
Composed their wings
And settled
On the rippling water
As though it were a nest.

Anne Porter, “Wild Geese Alighting on a Lake” from Living Things, Zoland Books. Used by permission of Steerforth Press.

Archangels who protect…


“Protective Angel who watches over me, I thank Thee for Thy kindliness, Thy help and Thy light. Receive my thanks for having purified the air around me, that I might attract good energies and finally achieve the destiny that is mine.”

To be able to read or print the complete unfolding of this secret ceremony and what remains to be done on your side, I have transcribed my recording in its exact terms here below:
“As I had told you, last night, when the Night of Angels was barely starting, at exactly midnight, the Angelus sounded and the boreal ways of the Upper World and the Lower World opened up in perfect harmony. Thus, all was set for the powerful Divine Impulses to come to me; I then began this first, powerful Ceremony of a divine nature especially for you.
Alone in my prayer room, I lit the great celestial candelabra, that the room might be placed under the high and solemn sign of the Divine.
I next wrote down your name on a consecrated parchment, to welcome your spirit to this location.
I then knelt. I joined my hands in prayer. I then concentrated on you and began to recite a very old mystical incantation on your behalf, to call your Protective Guardian Angel.
Very soon thereafter, the spirit of your Protective Guardian Angel merged with mine. Thus, shortly after midnight, we entered into spiritual communion and multiplied the power of our divine impulses, so that we two spiritually became one. Materialized in a veritable pillar of light, we then produced a fantastic current of energy that rose straight to Heaven.
I then continued to meditate most firmly by focusing all my thoughts exclusively on you. Then, taking my sacred incense burner, solely by the light of the candelabra, I recited a secret divine prayer on your behalf, in order to purify the air element.
That was when, through a magical process known only to me, I entered into a Spiritual-Angelical Contact with you and remotely transmitted to you this extremely powerful positive Divine Energy you need.
This purifying energy flow immediately acted in your favour. It purified the air that surrounds you to begin to free you from the nefarious energies that infected your spiritual potential.
Afterwards, I remained silent for quite a while. Incredible images paraded through my mind. I saw you surrounded by Angels who repeated your first name and encircled you in a bright halo of bluish light, the symbol of the divine light of pure protection.
One thing is certain: your spirit has now been placed under the caring, protective hand of the Divine World. Let me tell you I feel reassured.
Finally, in conclusion, I greeted Heaven and thanked it, so perfectly well did this first great Ceremony go.
My part is over for now, but you have one all small thing to do to conclude this angelical ceremony of purification by air.
Stretch out on your bed, arms along your body. Make sure you are comfortable: this is very important. Next, close your eyes and take seven deep breaths, breathing in through the nose and out through the mouth. Every time you inhale, visualize your Guardian Angel Protector’s energy flow entering you and spreading throughout your body. Every time you exhale, imagine that all your cares and woes are leaving you through your breath.
Once you have completed the seven-breath cycle, keep your closed eyes and recite, aloud and clearly, the following incantation:
“Protective Angel who watches over me, I thank Thee for Thy kindliness, Thy help and Thy light. Receive my thanks for having purified the air around me, that I might attract good energies and finally achieve the destiny that is mine.”
Conclude by blinking your eyes 3 times before opening them completely.
Within the next few hours, you should start feeling an immense difference, akin to a sense of liberation, the ability to breathe more easily.
You will note a very strong increase in your vital and psychic forces. Your mind will be more optimistic, more positive. You will have more dynamism with which to set off to conquer happiness.


tasty sandwiches …and a greedy mouth lead to a Nobel prize


Mayan head-dress- Mo Yan (don’t speak)


The Beautiful Sandwich
by Brad Ricca

She could always make
the most beautiful sandwich.
Laced swiss cheese: sliced
crossways, folded once.
Ham in rolls like sleeping bags.
Turkey piled like shirts.
Tarragon. Oregano. Pepper.
Herb dill mayonnaise the color of
skin. On top: the thin, wandering line of
like a contour on a map
in a thin, flat drawer.
Or a single, lost vein.
The poppyseeds hold on,
for now.

Placed on a plate like isolated
or a large, solemn head.
The spilled chips in yellow piles
are like the strange coins
of tall, awkward islanders.
The thin dill pickle: their boat
slides into
the green-sour sea.

Brad Ricca, “The Beautiful Sandwich” from American Mastodon, © Black Lawrence Press.

It’s the birthday of novelist Mo Yan , born in Gaomi, China (1955). He is the first Chinese citizen to win the Nobel Prize in literature (2012). Yan was born Guan Moye, but his parents were always warning him not to speak his mind outside the home, which he ignored. He says, “I was lazy. I had a greedy mouth, and I could not stop talking. There really wasn’t much about me worth loving, and that often drew a sigh from my mother.”
Yan is best known for his novel Red Sorghum: A Novel of China (1986), which spans more than 50 years of the Shandong family, who own a sorghum distillery and join the resistance during the Second Sino-Japanese War. “Mo Yan” means “don’t speak” in Chinese.
Mo Yan was born into a peasant family. They were the largest clan in the village and even had two trees, an apricot and a pear. He was eleven when the Cultural Revolution began and left school to work on a farm as a cattle herder. Later, he worked in a cotton factory before enlisting in the People’s Liberation Army (1976). He began writing as a soldier, completing his first novel, titled A Transparent Radish, in 1984. He followed that with The Garlic Ballads (1988).
When he was awarded the Nobel Prize, Mo Yan said: “For a writer, the best way to speak is by writing. You will find everything I need to say in my works. Speech is carried off by the wind; the written word can never be obliterated.”

from the Poetry Almanac; February 17, 2021

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